I think I'm passive-depressive.

I honestly thought I'd get used to using this blog and just cross-posting to my LJ, but it hasn't been the case. I think it's hard to break the LJ habit, and if I'm being honest with myself, it's not like I really want to all that much. It occurred to me recently that I'll have had my LJ for four years come February and that amazes me quite a bit. I've talked about so much that has happened to me over that time that it's possible for me to know exactly when I did something or how excited I was about something. Yes, sometimes that's embarrassing, but it's there.

I've also met some of the most amazing people through LJ that I can't even imagine my life without them. As an example, I'm sitting here in the woods of North Carolina with one of my dearest friends, nomdeploom, in a cabin that is so relaxing I can't even think straight. I'd have never met her without LJ. And there are so many others who I would gladly travel the globe for in order to see them (you know, if money wasn't an issue).

I've been able to find people on LJ because I don't hold anything back. I don't worry about people stumbling upon the posts unless I want them to and it somehow makes it easier to just blather on about anything. Not the case here since I've told myself I'm going to keep it public.

I'm not abandoning this blog because I do intend to try and post more often. What's even funnier is that most things I post are so inconsequential that it wouldn't matter if they were here out in the open. I just can't seem to allow myself to do it too often. Weird, that.

The theater here in West Jefferson shows movies for $5. Tonight it's movie time - after our trek to the Ashe County Cheese Store. It's silly how happy I am about this.

Or cleaning. Or getting ready. Or going to the bank. Or getting some coffee. There certainly are a number of things I should be doing right now, but I'm finding it hard to just walk away from the soft glow of the computer and live in the real world. I'm about to get a pretty big dose of reality in just a little while when I leave here with my brother, my nephews (8, 5 yrs. old), and my niece (3 yrs. old). We're off to the most magical place in the universe - the happiest place on Earth (hey - I've been fed that since birth). Yep - Disneyland! I'm sure I'll get more excited as we get closer, but right now I find myself nothing but nervous and doubtful. Can I handle my family for 4 days? Can I handle kids for 4 days (straight)? Sure, all three of those kids have me wrapped around their little fingers, but still. 4 days? With no place for peace and quiet. *channels patience*

Tonight I'm taking my niece to Build-a-Bear. She can make anything she wants. Oh, and my dad is meeting us on Friday at some point.

As one can imagine, I'll probably be nowhere near a computer. I mean, I'm taking my work laptop, but it's mostly to work on a report any time I get a minute (if I can somehow manage that).

So, my loves, I'm out for the weekend. I hope you all have lots of fun and I'm sure there will be pictures upon my return. The camera's memory card is empty and the extra batteries are ready to go.